Last year I looked at a couple of my early vids and felt much the same - the *idea* was good, but.... :/
In any case, hopefully it's the love of the subject that shines greater than any technical flaws or self-criticism when you revisit your early vids. :)

For my own purposes, I decided to never again vid with cam footage. (LOL - yes I did that! and I'm not even ashamed anymore)